So today's prompt is my definition of love. Wow this is a really difficult one for me. As I mentioned before in the post on first love, love is such a general concept. There are so many different kinds of love and I have experienced some of them.
Love is basically, a really strong feeling of liking someone or something. For me, I don't say things that I don't mean, so I don't really say out loud that I love someone or something so easily. So if I do say I love someone or something, you can be sure that I really do mean it.
Which might be the reason why I dislike the concept of couple. And I mean "couple" as in the Malaysian term for it. Couple means that two people are in a boyfriend-girlfriend relationship and when they let it be known to public it means they have declared that they are a couple. It might just be my pessimistic heart but from my experiences seeing friends couple, it usually never lasts. It's even hilarious at times, like you see them being super sweet and couply but then next week suddenly they already broke up. Sometimes I feel evil and thought of just being all in their face and be like "Oh but didn't you say you loooveee him so much? Did you guys not buy matching item and promised to stay together forever? Whatever happened to that huhhh~?"
I'm sorry but I am evil. Maybe it's because I can usually tell whether the couple are really into each other or they are just in a relationship because of other things such as popularity or insecurity or peer pressure or whatever. I always scoff whenever people say this or that couple are so sweet look what the bf did for the gf or anything because really, will they really stay together? Imagine looking back on the sweet gestures when they already broke up. Did the gestures mean nothing? Did you guys ever really loved each other?
Anyways I am ranting a lot suddenly. Maybe it's because I get so frustrated seeing people being delusional on the perfect relationships. Nowadays especially with social medias everyone be like I wanna show the world how perfect our relationship is and make everyone jealous of us. Like, I question the sincerity in every social media posts.
So yeah, I do not like couples and I do not believe in couples and I will never couple until I am sure that I would want to marry the guy. I can't really say anything on relationships and love because while I have a lot of crushes I have never had a guy chasing after me. Maybe some of the girls are in a relationship because the guy chased after her and she felt "loved" so then they became a couple? Only for the guy to be a jerk and found someone prettier or anything and dump the girl. Okay I will stop being pessimistic now.
Despite all this, I do wish to fall in love. I do want to be loved, but I crave for depth and I am scared. I am actually scared of falling in love so badly only to have the person not feeling the same and have my heart broken. So I don't fall in love. At least not now. There's a lot of other things to worry about besides love anyway (like Monsta X's comeback on 21st March oh mY GOD)
Love is a wonderful thing, which is why I take good care of it.
*Fun fact - while I was writing this post Good Charlotte's I Don't Wanna Be In Love was playing XD
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