Thursday, May 5

Seventeen 1st Win!


I went on YouTube and this video came out on my homepage. I will admit, I wasn't VERY surprised, because I knew they were steadily climbing the charts and their popularity is no joke. And I will also admit I felt a bit bitter because I'm currently into UP10TION, and they were in the top 3 once with their song ATTENTION (
나한테만 집중해) , but sadly they didn't win.

But then I went on and watched the video, and when they won I actually cried with them. Wait, am I going too fast? Should I give an intro first?

Okay, now that I think about it SEVENTEEN actually sort of pulled me back into K-Pop, or more specifically Jeonghan did. I was scrolling through FB and I liked Allkpop's page so a few of the articles were on my homepage. So I saw this one article about a new rookie group called SEVENTEEN where they dressed up for Halloween and one member's costume in particular caught people's attention. I'm not sure what exactly made me click that article but I did. So I read the article and saw their pictures. The costume that caught people's attention was a male Harley Quinn costume. What made it interesting was the fact that the guy wearing it has long hair and was pretty. I also thought he was pretty and his hair was nice, and I wondered if it was a wig. Then I realized that his hair looked very much like his own because I can see his roots or whatever, but I could tell that it was his own hair. WHAT?! IT'S SO LONG
!




You can tell it's his real hair right? Anyways, I was so shocked because he looks so pretty! I mean, at that time it's been a while since I've seen real pretty guys because I've been seeing fictional pretty guys in anime. So I continued scrolling down the article and lo and behold one of the comments had this GIF image :



Let's just say I was sold. He freaking looks like he came out from an anime. I literally gasp and just immediately searched for this guy and the group. 

And that was how I got back into K-Pop. Well, I never actually really left, I just stopped updating myself about it, like I don't really search for new songs or what any specific groups are doing or anything, but I do know the really popular songs or updates.

Anyways, back to SEVENTEEN, yeah I really got into them, I really liked their song Mansae and Adore U, I thought they're really funny and they released a lot of different dance practice versions which I find entertaining to watch. They just debuted at the time, in 2015, and I really thought they were great rookies and had a lot of potential, despite having 13 members. Yes, you read that right, they have 13 members, the same as Super Junior when they first debuted. And they're all really young too, the oldest were born in 1995 and the youngest in 1999. Yup, 3 of the members are younger than me and 3 are the same age as me. And I'm still young right?!

So yeah, I was into them and then I went back to University for the 2nd sem and things change. I will admit, I get affected by my surroundings, so when I was in 2nd sem SEVENTEEN just slowly faded away. It was not like I forgot about them or anything it's just that they became a background thing you know, like I don't follow their updates and stuffs. And then I finished the 2nd sem and also the Asasi program (sobs) and stayed in KL for a while. This is where my sister then introduces me to UP10TION.

I am also influenced by my sister sometimes, and so I got hooked to UP10TION. I will write more about them soon, it is a story for another day. The point is I got into UP10TION and so they became my bias group? Can I call it that? Yeah, I'm gonna call it a bias group. So naturally I wanted them to win, but they didn't. And then today I saw that SEVENTEEN had won. So yeah, I got a bit bitter.

I did follow SEVENTEEN during this comeback, so I did watch their showcase and all that and I will admit I freaking love their new song Pretty U. I really love it. And their performance is awesome too. And everyone looks good. I had a feeling they would win so that was why I wasn't really surprised. So I watched the video of their 1st win.

And I cried.

When the results were announced of course they were shocked, and then tears started falling. I could tell some of them were really crying. And I'm weak to people crying. S.Coups being the leader came to the front to give their thank you speech, but he was just speechless and was crying. It took a while until someone took the mic and gave the speech. Seungkwan was crying, S.Coups was crying, Hoshi tried to talk but he also cried. And then the camera showed Woozi and omg this kid was legit crying and leaning his face to someone's back. I just couldn't take it and tears started to flow. It was really nice. I just felt so happy for them you know. Go and watch the video (the link is at the top) to see what I'm talking about.

But I just said I was bitter about them winning right? Why did I still cry?

The answer is simple. It's because no matter who they are, they worked hard to achieve it. Whether it's SEVENTEEN or UP10TION, or any other groups, everyone worked their asses off. Everyone faced hardships to get to where they are. But unfortunately, you can't give trophies to everyone. And SEVENTEEN deserved it. So I'm okay now.

That ends today's daily random post. I'm thinking of writing daily, but I think I'll run out of thing to write. And I probably won't have the mood to write everyday. Oh well, I'll stick to my random writing-whenever-I-want-to schedule then. Bye-bye~!



Congratulations SEVENTEEN! Wanna know who's pretty? You guys are! 너 예쁘다 ~!

Monday, May 2

The Exam Situation

No one likes examinations. I mean no one. Whether it’s oral, written or physical exams, you are being tested, of course you won’t like it. Okay, maybe there are some people out there who like being tested but I can safely say I’m not one of those people. I dislike exams too.

But somehow, I do sometimes enjoy the exam situation. I’m talking about written exams. I’m sure everyone has gone through a written exam at least once right? What I mean by the exam situation is when the exam is going on. Everyone would be so quiet and it would just be you and your mind speaking. Have you ever stop and think about it? You can hear your mind very loudly.

I don’t know what it is with me and my mind but I would always find myself having a conversation in my head. With who exactly? I myself am not sure. It’s a conversation with myself I guess? And whenever I’m in the exam halls and I’m stuck on a question or just got bored or sleepy, my mind would start to wander. Yes, I will admit I daydream a lot during exams. Because it’s so quiet! And it’s always the most random stuff that comes into my head.

Sometimes I would daydream that everyone is so focused, what if there was someone reading minds right now? Usually it would become a fantasy where the group that I’m currently obsessed with (could be either real or fiction, eg.UP10TION or Espada) is facing their exams and they could telepathically talk with each other and they end up discussing the answers until the responsible one in their team tells them to shut up and not cheat. Weird right? During that time I would smile and snicker to myself.

Yeah, I can imagine if there was a fancam of me during exams it would look like I’m a psycho because I would be looking everywhere and suddenly smile to myself or even giggle and laugh. Either they think I’m a psycho or I’m cheating. Hmm, I wonder what is the examiners’ point of view on students facing exams. Have they seen someone enjoying themselves answering the tests? Have they seen someone crying? That would be interesting.

What was the point of this post again… Ah right, me enjoying the exam situation. Yeah, I seem to enjoy it sometimes because it’s just so quiet but you’re surrounded by people. It gives me time to watch people and think about what they’re thinking.

There was this one time, a lecturer came in the hall and stopped by at my friend and they talked a little bit so I was watching them. I looked over to my right and saw this guy who had his back straight and was also looking at the lecturer. He was really staring and wasn’t even holding his pencil. I looked around and everyone was bent over their papers and busy writing except for this guy. And then I realized I was doing the exact same thing he was. I was staring at him. When I realized this somehow it seemed funny to me. Imagine if there was an overhead camera and you could see that there’s this one guy sitting straight looking at the lecturer and a girl staring at the guy and giggling because she realized they’re both daydreaming.

Of course, I would only enjoy the exam situation if I could answer the questions. When I can, that is when I would start to daydream and observe people. When I can’t, I would think hard about it, and then daydream when I’m totally lost. Or think of acceptable wrong answers, so I won’t leave it blank.

Just remembered another thing, usually there’s a song playing in my head. If it’s a good song then I would enjoy it but when it keeps playing I would tell myself to stop it and play another song. Sometimes it works but other times I would just be stuck with that one song. It’s even worse when there’s a favorite high note or ad-lib in the song because when it gets to that part I would want to sing it so I would try to do so as quietly as I can which would result in weird noises that would probably make the examiners think I’m in pain or just being crazy.


So yeah, in short, I don’t like exams, but when I’m confident in answering them, I can enjoy the situation and observe people, daydream, think of fanfics and stuffs. Am I being weird again? Never mind I’m always being weird anyway.