Entry #22 Something that upsets me

Hello, things have been steadily progressing. I have 3 entries in line about things that upset me, makes me happy and makes me cry. So I took a bit of rest before continuing these entries.

I get upset over the smallest things actually. But what is something that really upsets me? Hmm, upset also brings a bit of slightly different meanings. For this, I would say it's about something that makes me feel unhappy.

I guess one of it would be, when people seek beauty and suffer to achieve it. It sounds really deep but it's not that deep. What I mean is that sometimes, or make that a number of times, my friends would say something along the lines of "Oh look at her legs, so skinny" or "Oh my god did you see ___? Handsome or beautiful nak mampos". Then they would usually proceed to humiliate themselves, like saying their legs are fat or they're not pretty. They would then proceed to make efforts to make themselves pretty, like dieting or taking beauty supplements. I mean, if you want it badly then it's up to you I guess.

I just get so frustrated when I see people praising someone for their beauty. Like, so what if they're pretty? I get especially mad when I see the people they are praising and it turns out they have so many layers of makeup caked and they don't even look their age and I dunno, they just look so superficial to me.

But it's not like I can freely express my distaste when people praise beautiful people. If I do people might think I'm just being bitter and jealous. Well, I do know I'm not as beautiful as those people, but I still think I'm pretty enough and honestly? I don't freaking care if you're more beautiful than me. So what?

Man, people might really think I'm actually being bitter. Well I just don't like it when people praise to the point of idolizing someone because of their looks. I just don't get impressed by it. Maybe it's because I've grown up watching cartoons and shows where the pretty people are usually the bad people. Like, the backstabbers and the fakers and the ones who don't end up well in the end.

Thinking about it, some might question my liking to Kpop, because you know visuals play a big role in Kpop. I admit that. But it's not like I only like them because they're beautiful and really, I don't always go for the visuals. I usually like the quieter ones. And I like Kpop as in the music. Like, duh, obviously I wanna buy the album to listen to oppa's face right?

So yeah, I do get quite upset when my friends praise someone just for their beauty like if they pay attention to me they would probably notice my distaste whenever it comes up because I'm not that good in hiding my expressions actually.

Seriously people, looks are only temporary. Your personality is forever.