Entry #26 My fears

I do have quite a few fears. The normal fear of dangerous and scary things are just normal. There's one thing that I fear that might be a bit different than normal fears. The fear of being judged. I don't mean being judged as in people look at me and be like 'hmm she ain't pretty'. What I mean is when people watch me and expect me to act a certain way.

Maybe it's because I'm the type to change my personality according to who I'm with so that costs a bit of misunderstanding. Like, when I just entered the new college and then there's my roommates and their family and I just get so awkward because I feel like my mom would expect me to start speaking to them.

I do not do crowd socializing well, but I am not bad at giving motivation for the other contestants. (See this is what happens when you force yourself to write when you're too sleepy. What contestants? Giving motivation? Man this is hilarious hahahaha)

I was literally dozing off in front of my laptop. Man, I was super tired last night. Anyway, on to the post.

Yes, so I'm the kind of person where I adapt myself to who I am with. Sometimes I get a bit awkward and anxious when there's too many people so I don't really know how to act around these crowds. But I wouldn't exactly call it a fear. It's more on to something I'm nervous about. Like presenting in front of people. It's just nervous.

Hmm so what do I fear? Well, I just fear what everyone else also fears. Nothing weird. Sorry I'm not in the mood to feel fear kekeke.