So I don't know how I got this test but somehow the pdf was in my download folder so I did the test (cos I'm a sucker for personality test). It seems really fun so I decided to share with you what the results were. And if you're interested in doing it, you better do it first before reading my results, cos then it'll spoil your own test. Take the test here !
Firstly was my priorities in life. It goes in the order Love, Pride, Career, Family and Money. I'm really happy I got Love as my top priority, isn't that sweet? A bit confused as to why Family is a bit low, but I'd like to think Family falls under Love too. Is my priority in life Love? There's a number of ways you can interpret love and I would say it goes with being happy. Whatever happens in life I wanna be happy. So, love yourself? I do. To the point where I love myself too much ha.
Then there was the personalities. Mine is Loyal hahahaha. Am I? Hmm not sure. My partner would be Cute. Yes, I'll definitely make sure of that hahaha. My enemies are Dirty. Here comes the best part, how I interpret sex. And my answer was Bitter. Pffffftttt~ This really got me laughing. Then we get a bit deep as my life is described as Wide. Good answer dude. I get really deep when thinking about life and the future stuffs and I always just step back and watch K-Pop again to make me sane.
Then there was the people. Paan is be someone I'll never forget, Abang is someone I consider my true friend, Kakak is someone I love dearly, Mama is my twin soul and Andi is someone I will remember for the rest of my life. Loved this. Ayah would be in here too but there was only 5 slots. Overall I would say that I love all my family members and obviously I won't forget them.
Afterwards the test told me to send the test to my favorite number amount of people and my wish would come true on my favorite day. But I don't really believe in this stuff and I'm too lazy to forward them so that's that.
So that was my results. I think it was really interesting because when you answer the test you wouldn't expect that this would be the result of your answers. I think the test was created by Dalai Lama if I'm not mistaken? So yeah, go and take the test!
I'm currently on my mid-sem break for a week but it seems like I did nothing for the whole week (except for downloading K-pop performances, but that's a given). I do have assignments and even project works but hey, who is Fatin if she doesn't do things in the last minute and panic right?
Right.
Friday, October 28
Friday, September 16
Mon mon mon mon
Hello and whatsupp everybody~! Today I'm gonna talk about Monsta X 2.5 project The Clan. Basically it's a trilogy, because there's gonna be 3 parts to it but somehow it'll be part 1, part 2 and then part 2.5 I guess? Because they specifically mentioned the 2.5 part so yeah.
For those of you who might not know it, it has become a trend for groups to do these trilogies where they sort of work around a concept or story line throughout 3 of their releases, be it a full album or mini album or just a single. So Monsta X has also joined this trend, but they're being hipster about it and making it a 2.5 project (but basically it will still have 3 parts, so yeah).
They have released the first part which is The Clan part 1 : LOST. I became a fan just slightly before this comeback so it was really interesting for me. They came back with the title song All In. On music shows the song they promote before All In during the comeback week was Ex-Girl, which actually features Whee In from MAMAMOO but she didn't promote it live with them.
Enough boring stuff, let's talk about the MV! The MV is what actually makes this project really interesting, as it has a story line. I'll try not to go into details on the MV, but it's really interesting to see all these people making up their theories and all. Do watch the MV first, it'll help you a lot : click here
So basically, Monsta X are in this dystopian setting, where the society are being oppressed. Monsta X are these group of friends (some might say some of them are brothers, but we can't know that for sure) who are against the officials in power. However, Hyungwon is actually the son (or nephew, I prefer son though) of one of the officers in charge. His father then gets angry at him for being involved in actions against the people in charge and so smacks him in front of the rest of Monsta X. We later find out that he gets beaten up badly at home. Minhyuk discovers this and got very upset and angry. He then got together with Wonho and IM and they burned down the building which could be the building of the officials, including Hyungwon's father.
On the other side of the MV, we have Shownu. Shownu has an old relative who is in a really bad shape. He wants to help the relative, but doesn't have any money. In comes Jooheon who then persuades Shownu to join him in robbing a bank. Wait, aren't they supposed to be the good guys here? Exactly. They're not exactly good guys, but it's for a good cause. Shownu was really desperate for the money. But when he did get them, the relative has already gone, probably passed away. Feeling devastated, he burns the money and proceeds to drink the vial of blue liquid.
About the vial of blue liquid, apparently Monsta X are not just a group of friends, they're a clan. They have X tattoos on their bodies and when gathered around the fire they have these face paintings. They have this blue flower (most say it's delphinium) where they make drinks out of it. I'm saying drinks because while it seems like potion most of the times, there are people who argue that they could be poison too. So this blue concoction, they gather around and make it and they seem really high when drinking them. Jooheon seems to be the master behind this as he's the one mixing them and making weird gestures in the center of their circle.
So these vials of blue liquid, Shownu drinks it when devastated. Continuing Hyungwon and Minhyuk's story, after burning the building Minhyuk went to find Hyungwon, only to discover that he has drowned himself (in a bathtub no less lol). Minhyuk then pours the vial of blue liquid into the tub, and then lies down beside Hyungwon (in the really small tub so they're really close to each other woo) and holds his hand. We then see that Hyungwon's hand moved to squeeze Minhyuk's. So what exactly happened? Is Hyungwon not dead? Is Minhyuk dead? Did the blue liquid have some magical power to bring back the dead or something?
In another scene too, we see Monsta X in some sort of military uniforms, but it's white and running away from something or someone. These clips are like from a different timeline because it seems detached from the other story line. Kihyun also seem to be walking and running just fine so it's really weird. In one of the scene, Hyungwon seems to be passed out under a bridge. Dead or not. we don't know, but then Minhyuk proceeds to feed him the blue flower. So what exactly is the blue flower's power?
Another interesting case is Kihyun. Kihyun apparently has trouble walking and is seen with crutches. But in one scene he seems to be going somewhere and is really struggling. He then throws the crutches and drags himself to somewhere. This is one of my favorite scenes.
At the end of the MV, we see Monsta X in their white uniforms going through the forest to find some weird pulsing thing in the sky. Seriously, that's the best way for me to describe it. The important thing to note is that the pulsing thingy has the same shade as the blue flowers. So what exactly have I watched?
Since this is just the first part, there's a lot of things that are unexplained. What exactly is the flowers' properties? Did anybody die? What's the story behind Kihyun's crutches? What is the relationship between Hyungwon and Minhyuk? And Kihyun and IM? What about Wonho's and Jooheon's story? What is the weird pulsing thingy at the end? Why are they in military uniform and what are they running away from? Hopefully all of these will be answered in part 2, which will probably be out in October. OMG CAN'T WAIT.
Here's my assumptions on some of those questions. The flower, I'm not sure, but it definitely has healing properties. Is it able to bring back the dead? Was Hyungwon even dead? No idea. Hyungwon and Minhyuk seem really close in the MV and they look like they're in love but this is South Korea we're talking about. I think they're still not very open about LGBT but Starship has recently being playing around with some of these kind of scenes, where they seem to be in love. So yeah, I guess it's up to you if you want to view them as a couple or not. My fangirl heart wants to say they are, but Hyungwonho's my OTP... XD
They can also be really close friends though, because come on, you can still love your best friend in a platonic way and want to sacrifice yourself for them right? (Though getting into the small bathtub and holding their hand might be a bit over the top...) What I mean by sacrificing yourself is because there is a theory where Minhyuk pours the vial and sort of exchanges his soul for Hyungwon, hence seeing Hyungwon's hand moving but not Minhyuk. It could happen but still, we don't know about the flower's power.
Kihyun, IM, Wonho and Jooheon's story, I'll look forward in the next part. Kihyun and IM have a scene where they seem really close too but it was just one scene so yeah, looking forward to that too. Hopefully there would be more explanation about the weird pulsing thingy too. The placed a lot of emphasis on the colors of the flowers so I was expecting their hair to have streaks of it or something but apparently it didn't happen.
Which reminds me THEY HAVE ALREADY DYED THEIR HAIR FOR THE COMEBACK! I was so surprised because I did not expect it at all and then suddenly everyone's screaming about how comeback is in the air. It's a great feeling. While we're at it I might as well talk about their hairstyles.
Shownu's hair is short and black now. It's not really different from before, just shorter and it looks good. My favorite hair for Shownu would be during... anything but Rush lol. His hair doesn't really change much honestly, at least not drastically.
Wonho's hair is a mystery. In some pics they look pretty much the same but in some other pics they seem grayish, and even blueish in some. Meh. My favorite hair for him is during Hero, he looks so freaking hot. A lot of people liked him blonde but I prefer Hero era.
Minhyuk gave me a heart attack. HIS HAIR IS DARK BROWN/BLACK. You know the moment when an idol who has had a lot of different colored hair suddenly goes black? It's a historical moment. I love these moments. Minhyuk has been blonde from debut and now he has dark hair. It is amazing, I freaking love it. He had dark hair pre-debut but it wasn't that awesome. Anyway my favorite hair for Minhyuk would definitely be during Stuck, I mean he owned that white hair. I might have cried a lil bit inside knowing the white hair's gone now but you know what? Cry a river, build a bridge, get over it and look forward to dark haired Minhyuk cos so far he still looks fine as heck.
Kihyun is also another person who gave me a heart attack. HIS HAIR IS PINK! I kinda have mixed feelings over it, I mean he still looks fine. But why pink? What are they trying to achieve with it? He still looks great and looks really cute and young, especially in the performance because he's short too keke. My favorite hair for Kihyun would be... All In? When it's styled up he looks really hot.
I really can't find a really good pic of his hair so here's the performance where I really like his hair : here
Hyungwon's hair is light brown. Hmm.. I'm not really digging it. He doesn't look bad but because I've seen him with better hair. I'm hoping they would change the style for the comeback maybe? My favorite hair for Hyungwon would be during Hero or All In, when it's styled up. Blonde during Rush wasn't so bad either, he looked like a good-looking punk.
Jooheon's hair is short and black. It's not a lot of difference and he looks great with it. My favorite hair for Jooheon would be during Hero, when it's just sort of tinted red instead of fully red during Rush.
IM's hair is hard to describe. It's sort of grayish, but with black undercut? Like, the hair below where it's closely cut is black, but his hair up top is grayish. I'm not digging it so far but again, hopefully, they'll style it properly for the comeback. My favorite hair for IM would be during Hero? But when it's styled down because he looks cuter and I like a cuter IM.
You can obviously tell I'm pretty biased from the pictures. I'm sorry I couldn't find a lot of HD ones and it's really difficult to find a picture from a specific era through this page I'm always using.
Bottom line is : Stan Monsta X! They're having a comeback soon so now is the time to get to know them!
For those of you who might not know it, it has become a trend for groups to do these trilogies where they sort of work around a concept or story line throughout 3 of their releases, be it a full album or mini album or just a single. So Monsta X has also joined this trend, but they're being hipster about it and making it a 2.5 project (but basically it will still have 3 parts, so yeah).
They have released the first part which is The Clan part 1 : LOST. I became a fan just slightly before this comeback so it was really interesting for me. They came back with the title song All In. On music shows the song they promote before All In during the comeback week was Ex-Girl, which actually features Whee In from MAMAMOO but she didn't promote it live with them.
Enough boring stuff, let's talk about the MV! The MV is what actually makes this project really interesting, as it has a story line. I'll try not to go into details on the MV, but it's really interesting to see all these people making up their theories and all. Do watch the MV first, it'll help you a lot : click here
So basically, Monsta X are in this dystopian setting, where the society are being oppressed. Monsta X are these group of friends (some might say some of them are brothers, but we can't know that for sure) who are against the officials in power. However, Hyungwon is actually the son (or nephew, I prefer son though) of one of the officers in charge. His father then gets angry at him for being involved in actions against the people in charge and so smacks him in front of the rest of Monsta X. We later find out that he gets beaten up badly at home. Minhyuk discovers this and got very upset and angry. He then got together with Wonho and IM and they burned down the building which could be the building of the officials, including Hyungwon's father.
On the other side of the MV, we have Shownu. Shownu has an old relative who is in a really bad shape. He wants to help the relative, but doesn't have any money. In comes Jooheon who then persuades Shownu to join him in robbing a bank. Wait, aren't they supposed to be the good guys here? Exactly. They're not exactly good guys, but it's for a good cause. Shownu was really desperate for the money. But when he did get them, the relative has already gone, probably passed away. Feeling devastated, he burns the money and proceeds to drink the vial of blue liquid.
About the vial of blue liquid, apparently Monsta X are not just a group of friends, they're a clan. They have X tattoos on their bodies and when gathered around the fire they have these face paintings. They have this blue flower (most say it's delphinium) where they make drinks out of it. I'm saying drinks because while it seems like potion most of the times, there are people who argue that they could be poison too. So this blue concoction, they gather around and make it and they seem really high when drinking them. Jooheon seems to be the master behind this as he's the one mixing them and making weird gestures in the center of their circle.
So these vials of blue liquid, Shownu drinks it when devastated. Continuing Hyungwon and Minhyuk's story, after burning the building Minhyuk went to find Hyungwon, only to discover that he has drowned himself (in a bathtub no less lol). Minhyuk then pours the vial of blue liquid into the tub, and then lies down beside Hyungwon (in the really small tub so they're really close to each other woo) and holds his hand. We then see that Hyungwon's hand moved to squeeze Minhyuk's. So what exactly happened? Is Hyungwon not dead? Is Minhyuk dead? Did the blue liquid have some magical power to bring back the dead or something?
In another scene too, we see Monsta X in some sort of military uniforms, but it's white and running away from something or someone. These clips are like from a different timeline because it seems detached from the other story line. Kihyun also seem to be walking and running just fine so it's really weird. In one of the scene, Hyungwon seems to be passed out under a bridge. Dead or not. we don't know, but then Minhyuk proceeds to feed him the blue flower. So what exactly is the blue flower's power?
Another interesting case is Kihyun. Kihyun apparently has trouble walking and is seen with crutches. But in one scene he seems to be going somewhere and is really struggling. He then throws the crutches and drags himself to somewhere. This is one of my favorite scenes.
At the end of the MV, we see Monsta X in their white uniforms going through the forest to find some weird pulsing thing in the sky. Seriously, that's the best way for me to describe it. The important thing to note is that the pulsing thingy has the same shade as the blue flowers. So what exactly have I watched?
Since this is just the first part, there's a lot of things that are unexplained. What exactly is the flowers' properties? Did anybody die? What's the story behind Kihyun's crutches? What is the relationship between Hyungwon and Minhyuk? And Kihyun and IM? What about Wonho's and Jooheon's story? What is the weird pulsing thingy at the end? Why are they in military uniform and what are they running away from? Hopefully all of these will be answered in part 2, which will probably be out in October. OMG CAN'T WAIT.
Here's my assumptions on some of those questions. The flower, I'm not sure, but it definitely has healing properties. Is it able to bring back the dead? Was Hyungwon even dead? No idea. Hyungwon and Minhyuk seem really close in the MV and they look like they're in love but this is South Korea we're talking about. I think they're still not very open about LGBT but Starship has recently being playing around with some of these kind of scenes, where they seem to be in love. So yeah, I guess it's up to you if you want to view them as a couple or not. My fangirl heart wants to say they are, but Hyungwonho's my OTP... XD
They can also be really close friends though, because come on, you can still love your best friend in a platonic way and want to sacrifice yourself for them right? (Though getting into the small bathtub and holding their hand might be a bit over the top...) What I mean by sacrificing yourself is because there is a theory where Minhyuk pours the vial and sort of exchanges his soul for Hyungwon, hence seeing Hyungwon's hand moving but not Minhyuk. It could happen but still, we don't know about the flower's power.
Kihyun, IM, Wonho and Jooheon's story, I'll look forward in the next part. Kihyun and IM have a scene where they seem really close too but it was just one scene so yeah, looking forward to that too. Hopefully there would be more explanation about the weird pulsing thingy too. The placed a lot of emphasis on the colors of the flowers so I was expecting their hair to have streaks of it or something but apparently it didn't happen.
Which reminds me THEY HAVE ALREADY DYED THEIR HAIR FOR THE COMEBACK! I was so surprised because I did not expect it at all and then suddenly everyone's screaming about how comeback is in the air. It's a great feeling. While we're at it I might as well talk about their hairstyles.
Shownu's hair is short and black now. It's not really different from before, just shorter and it looks good. My favorite hair for Shownu would be during... anything but Rush lol. His hair doesn't really change much honestly, at least not drastically.
Wonho's hair is a mystery. In some pics they look pretty much the same but in some other pics they seem grayish, and even blueish in some. Meh. My favorite hair for him is during Hero, he looks so freaking hot. A lot of people liked him blonde but I prefer Hero era.
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| What color is that? |
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| If only the baristas or waiters here are as hot as he is... |
Minhyuk gave me a heart attack. HIS HAIR IS DARK BROWN/BLACK. You know the moment when an idol who has had a lot of different colored hair suddenly goes black? It's a historical moment. I love these moments. Minhyuk has been blonde from debut and now he has dark hair. It is amazing, I freaking love it. He had dark hair pre-debut but it wasn't that awesome. Anyway my favorite hair for Minhyuk would definitely be during Stuck, I mean he owned that white hair. I might have cried a lil bit inside knowing the white hair's gone now but you know what? Cry a river, build a bridge, get over it and look forward to dark haired Minhyuk cos so far he still looks fine as heck.
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| I hate you Lee Minhyuk |
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| White hair was made for him |
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| Bonus : Rainbow pastel colored |
Kihyun is also another person who gave me a heart attack. HIS HAIR IS PINK! I kinda have mixed feelings over it, I mean he still looks fine. But why pink? What are they trying to achieve with it? He still looks great and looks really cute and young, especially in the performance because he's short too keke. My favorite hair for Kihyun would be... All In? When it's styled up he looks really hot.
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| He looks adorable really |
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| His hair is windswept here but yeah I like it |
Hyungwon's hair is light brown. Hmm.. I'm not really digging it. He doesn't look bad but because I've seen him with better hair. I'm hoping they would change the style for the comeback maybe? My favorite hair for Hyungwon would be during Hero or All In, when it's styled up. Blonde during Rush wasn't so bad either, he looked like a good-looking punk.
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| Why is he so beautiful? |
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| Sassy in black |
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| My favorite so far lol |
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| You look sexy with your hair pushed back |
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| Love the red tint |
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| Grandpa XD |
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| You sure he's the maknae? |
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| Okay now he's the maknae |
You can obviously tell I'm pretty biased from the pictures. I'm sorry I couldn't find a lot of HD ones and it's really difficult to find a picture from a specific era through this page I'm always using.
Bottom line is : Stan Monsta X! They're having a comeback soon so now is the time to get to know them!
Friday, August 12
A new chapter begins!
Hello hi hello! This post is just for the sake of me posting something. I do have a few things to write about but they take too much time which I do not have at the moment. So I'll just write this.
I AM STARTING MY DEGREE LIFE!
Pfft 'Degree Life' is so cliche but hey, it is what it is. Yes, I am going to continue my studies to degree level, because I do want to achieve a degree and get a good job and marry someone who would like me as I am and get a house and... where exactly am I going with this?
The point is I am continuing my studies. The most important question is where right? I am furthering my studies at... Universiti Malaya aka UM!! I was so shocked when I checked the website! But that was not where the shock ends. Apparently I was offered a place in... the TESL program!!! Can you imagine how shocked I was?!
I was like 'Really UM? You wanna take me as a TESL student? After that horrible interview?'
Just kidding. Alhamdulillah, I am very very thankful. Of course, I wanted literature but that is a story for another day/post. For now I am very grateful and have decided to embrace this opportunity.
So yeah, degree life. I am a little bit excited, I mean, I'm going to UM! Trust me when I say this, my father is 10x happier than I am when the results were out. He always talked about sending another child to UM so yeah here I am. Glad I could make you proud dad.
But I guess I'm a bit more anxious than excited? I mean, this is it. This is degree time. It's going to be way different that Asasi, and UM will definitely be different than UiTM so yeah I'm kinda nervous. There's also the fact that I'll be taking TESL as well.
But yeah, what is life without any difficulties right? I am preparing myself and am just hoping for the best. I will work hard, definitely, but I am quite anxious. I do look forward to joining any music clubs or something, as there is this sheet called the 'Kajian Bakat' and it seems like UM is really stepping up the game. The sheet is for knowing what activities were you active in and there is a band column so yeah I'm gonna tick that. Hopefully I'll get to join the orchestra or something, then my father's ambition - getting me into UM and making me join the orchestra or preferably gamelan, but I'm not interested in that - would be complete.
I guess that's it for now. Degree life here I come?
I AM STARTING MY DEGREE LIFE!
Pfft 'Degree Life' is so cliche but hey, it is what it is. Yes, I am going to continue my studies to degree level, because I do want to achieve a degree and get a good job and marry someone who would like me as I am and get a house and... where exactly am I going with this?
The point is I am continuing my studies. The most important question is where right? I am furthering my studies at... Universiti Malaya aka UM!! I was so shocked when I checked the website! But that was not where the shock ends. Apparently I was offered a place in... the TESL program!!! Can you imagine how shocked I was?!
I was like 'Really UM? You wanna take me as a TESL student? After that horrible interview?'
Just kidding. Alhamdulillah, I am very very thankful. Of course, I wanted literature but that is a story for another day/post. For now I am very grateful and have decided to embrace this opportunity.
So yeah, degree life. I am a little bit excited, I mean, I'm going to UM! Trust me when I say this, my father is 10x happier than I am when the results were out. He always talked about sending another child to UM so yeah here I am. Glad I could make you proud dad.
But I guess I'm a bit more anxious than excited? I mean, this is it. This is degree time. It's going to be way different that Asasi, and UM will definitely be different than UiTM so yeah I'm kinda nervous. There's also the fact that I'll be taking TESL as well.
But yeah, what is life without any difficulties right? I am preparing myself and am just hoping for the best. I will work hard, definitely, but I am quite anxious. I do look forward to joining any music clubs or something, as there is this sheet called the 'Kajian Bakat' and it seems like UM is really stepping up the game. The sheet is for knowing what activities were you active in and there is a band column so yeah I'm gonna tick that. Hopefully I'll get to join the orchestra or something, then my father's ambition - getting me into UM and making me join the orchestra or preferably gamelan, but I'm not interested in that - would be complete.
I guess that's it for now. Degree life here I come?
Monday, July 4
Interview
Hello. As you might see from my previous posts I was
fortunate enough to get called for TESL interview in UM and UiTM. So I’m just
going to write about what happened and also give some tips? Please don’t take
everything too seriously because this is just my experience and what I feel
about it, and different people have different opinions.
Okay so I had the UM interview first. I will admit, I was
not into the interview at all. I seriously played around and didn’t prepare
well at all. So you can imagine how it went. I arrived just in time for the
registration too and that was already pretty nerve-wrecking. We had to wait in
the auditorium and when we registered the people in charge told us where to sit
according to our panels. So I sat down in this row and then saw Hannan two rows
away from me so I went and sat behind her to chat a little bit. Wrong move! The
interview sessions starts and then apparently they were calling us according to
our seats so I was actually supposed to go later as I arrived later but because
I changed seats I got called earlier. I’m so sorry to all the other people who
came earlier than me…
So okay anyway we went to the interview place. Waited
nervously. I couldn’t think of anything at this time anymore so yeah. And then
it was my turn. Went in, bagi salam, gave all the documents and certificates
needed, sat down. And so it begins.
Of course, first they asked me to introduce myself. Even
here, I was already stuck! I gave my name, age, told them I finished the Asasi
TESL programme in UiTM, and I didn’t know what else to say. This was actually
really bad because they just want to hear you talk and stuff so they find
things to talk about from your introduction. Because that was all I said, they
asked me about the Asasi TESL programme. It wasn’t too hard to answer, but they
asked to talk a bit about my favourite subject, which I told them was
literature, and of course I was blank. How was I supposed to remember the
Literary Elements and stuff?! I was really unprepared.
Then they asked whether I’ve heard about the human capital
or something (basically the current issues) and I just told them I’m not
familiar with that. Then they asked about something else which I couldn’t hear
but it sounded weird so I said I didn’t know about that either. Then one of
them was really surprised and said “You don’t know about GST??”
Oh. OH! They actually asked about GST and I said I didn’t
know about it. So I quickly went “Oh! I’m sorry, I didn’t quite catch that.”
But of course, I still didn’t do any research and so was stuck. Shame on you
Fatin. Everything else after that was quite a blur and then we are finished.
Thanked the interviewers, took back my file, and wished them “Happy fasting.” I
was just trying to act cute lol. But the lady interviewer looked quite amused
when I exited so teehee.
So that was how it went. It was pretty bad as I was really
unprepared and seem half-assed. Onwards to the UiTM interview!
Knowing better now, I made some preparations for it. We got
to the place early, and this time the candidates have to sit for a written test
first. So I met up with Hannan (we were on the same panel, how lucky!) and we
went for the test. It was fine.
And so the interview starts. We had a bit of a panic because
they pasted a list of documents they wanted in order and it was different from
how we arranged it. Luckily I was the 4th or 5th
candidate so I managed to arrange my docs calmly and had time to spare to relax
myself.
My turn came. So I went in, bagi salam, and handed the docs.
Before going to the chair the interviewer asked me to tell her the numbers on
some paper on their table. It was a colour blind test. So I read the numbers,
and went to sit down. This time it went a little different as the interviewer
was the first to start the conversation. She said I finished the Asasi
programme, which campus was I from before Dengkil? So I told her I was from the
Shah Alam campus in the first sem and moved to Dengkil in the second sem. So
then she asked me about the difference of the two campuses. I was like, in what
aspect? She said it can be from any aspect. So I went on to talk about the
college.
I was pretty nervous and I don’t know how I answered. Maybe
it was just me but I felt like my answer was quite boring and the interviewer
had this judging look lol. Only after that did she asked me to give a brief
introduction about myself. This time I was more prepared, so I did a bit better
I guess.
I told her my name, age, where I’m from, that I’m the
youngest sibling and my hobbies. Surprisingly, she asked me about being the
youngest child. See, they just want to talk about what you said. She asked me
about how the youngest is always viewed as the spoilt one, so how do feel about
that? I told her I think it’s more about how the family treats the child, in my
case I don’t feel like I get any special treatment so I don’t think I’m spoilt.
Then she asked how do I make my older siblings listen to me or something and
I’m like, I don’t know what you’re talking about cause we all respect each
other and while I may be inexperienced in some areas, they still listen to what
I have to say. Ceyy if only my answer was that beautiful. But yeah it went
something like that.
So then she asked whether I’ve heard of any news on the
education system in Malaysia right now. I did prepare for this, but just
briefly on PPSMI and it was actually really old news, but that was the only
thing I got. She also laughed a bit and said that’s really old. So I said yeah
but I just knew that it was stopped because my school didn’t stop it and we
learned Science and Maths in English. It was the only thing I could do in the
situation because I really didn’t prepare on the education system (because I’m
not really interested, I know, I’m a bad person).
And then the other interviewer spoke up. She asked me, in
BM, about hak guru untuk merotan pelajar. Just a reminder that this is a TESL
interviewer okay everyone. I heard it from the other candidates before that we
have to answer a question in BM. But just for fun, I asked like I was being
clueless, whether I should answer in BM. And then the interviewer said “You
HAVE to answer in BM” and I’m like mmkay.
So yeah, even the question was difficult and to top it off I
had to answer in BM. I felt like this question went on for a really long time
because I had quite long pauses because I don’t really know how to say it in
BM. I know I know I’m a really bad person but seriously, I feel like I can
speak more freely in English rather than BM. Because in BM I have to be like
formal and baku but I’m only good in Kedah accents hahaha.
After the question they asked me whether I had any
questions, and I did prepare one. But I kinda asked a bit too much and the
interviewer looked a bit annoyed? Exasperated? Well because she said she can’t
really answer my question because it was up to the higher people or something
and I was like oh oh okay sorry about this. And then it was over. Took my docs,
bagi salam, wished them have a nice day. Because whatever happened you should
be nice even towards the end lol.
So that was my experience. I think I did better in the UiTM
interview compared to UM, but it still wasn’t that good anyway. So here are
some of my helpful or not-so-helpful tips!
1. Do your research!
You will know you have been called for an
interview at least a few days before. So you should use those days wisely and
prepare yourself. Do some research. Know the basic questions they would
probably ask in interviews, like how would you see yourself in 10 years time,
your strengths and weakness, the current issues. Get to know about the course
you’re about to take and the university you’re applying to. I would suggest
looking it up on the internet. Basically, prepare yourself, mentally,
physically and spiritually.
2. Prepare your documents!
This depends on the university you’re
applying to, some of them list down the documents they need, while some don’t.
Even if they don’t, you would need to at least bring all the basic documents
like copies of your IC and results and also certificates. When you’re given a
list make sure you have extras just in case anything happens. Also, if they
need it certified then get it certified and I would suggest doing it early so
that you don’t bother people. Don’t do this at the last minute (like what I
did…)
3. Be early!
Especially if you don’t know the place of
the interview. Being early is never a bad thing and you wouldn’t be kalut. If
you’re late you would probably panic and that would not help anything. You can
also meet the other candidates and if you’re a social person you can chat with
them. A lot of the tips I got from the internet recommended talking to the
other candidates to calm down and also make new friends but I’m not really a
social person so yeah, that’s up to you. If you feel like you need someone to
talk to then start a conversation with someone. If you feel like talking to
other candidates would make you even more nervous then don’t. But whatever it
is say calm.
4. Follow orders!
If they (the people in charge) tell you to
go somewhere then you go. If they tell you to sit there then you sit there. If
they tell you to sit according to your panels then you do so. This would avoid
any confusion as they have a reason for their orders. Also, you would probably
get a guide on what to wear for the interview so follow that too. I would
suggest not wearing anything you’re not comfortable with, like suddenly wearing
shawl when you’re only used to tudung bawal. This would only disturb you.
5. Try to be as calm as possible.
It’s totally normal to be nervous for
interviews. But don’t be too nervous that you can’t even talk properly. Like I
mentioned before, if you need to talk to people to calm down then find a friend
to talk to.
During the interview,
Try not to look too nervous. Be confident, but don’t be
cocky. This means don’t be arrogant and act like you’re such a great person. Be
humble. It’s always nice to smile too.
And try not to lie too much. It’s normal to stray from the
truths a little bit to make you seem like a good person, but don’t just
outright lie like saying you love reading when you don’t. The interviewer might
ask you about any books you’ve read and then you’d be screwed.
From my experience I would say the introduction is one of
the most important part so try and get it right. Look up on what to say in your
introduction and what not to say. Really, just do lots and LOTS of preparations
and you would be fine. Preparation is the key.
But don’t memorise your answers! You have to be flexible
because we never know what the interviewer is going to ask. Like me, most of
the posts I read about the TESL interview said that we have to do mock-teaching
but this year we didn’t have to. Of course I did prepare for it, but just a
little bit. That’s luck on my part I guess.
Also, you might get stressed when doing too much research
for the interview, so please control yourself. You would have a few days to
prepare so when you feel like it’s too much then just stop whatever you’re
doing and go relax yourself. Have some snacks, listen (and yell) to some songs,
sleep if you want to. Oh and please don’t lose sleep over the interview. I
don’t think that’s worth it. You would be tired for the interview anyway and
that’s a big no no.
So I guess that’s all. If you happen to stumble into this
post as you’re about to have an interview then all the best to you! Don’t worry
too much! Also please don’t follow all my tips too much as I’m not really a
qualified person to be giving tips anyway hahaha~
Tuesday, June 21
Most Eventful 5 Days Ever
I’ve been quite busy these past days. Not exactly busy, but
a LOT of things happened. Okay, where should I start?
Oh yeah, first of all, I was called for the interview for
TESL in UM and also in UiTM. Thing is, I knew I had to go to UM on 15/6,
Wednesday. So we (my parents and me) decided to take the ETS train on 14/6 and
then break our fast with my brother and sister. And then we were supposed to go
back the next day, on 15/6 after I finished my interview, as it is being held
in the morning. We took the 6pm train just to be save and my mom said they
weren’t any earlier trains anyway.
14/6 (Tuesday)
So yeah, we rode the train, arrived at KL Sentral, and rode
the LRT to Universiti Station where it is just a walking distance away from my
sister’s apartment. So we walked to her block and then she drove us to take my
brother from UM. We also took a look around on where I’m supposed to have the
interview tomorrow.
After that, we went back home and I fangirled with Kakak
about everything K-Pop. Then, it was time to break fast so we went to our
favourite restaurant Kayu Manis and had a wonderful feast. We went back home
and my dad went to the mosque with his friend. My mom then asked whether we
wanted to go to my cousin’s house as she had to send some medicines. Somehow,
in all our light-heartedness, we all agreed to go. There, we (more like my mom)
chatted a bit and then went back home. Tomorrow is my interview, so I should’ve
prepared myself right? But no I decided to fangirl more with Kakak. And I slept
late.
15/6 (Wednesday)
Interview day. My sister drove us there and dropped us. So I
went to the interview and my brother went wherever he wanted to because we
thought the interview would be a while. Anyway, I won’t talk about how the
interview went, maybe some other time I will, but not now.
So I finished the interview, so my parents called my brother
and asked how we were going to get to KL Sentral. Because my sister had a class
that day so she couldn’t send us, which was why she just dropped us off in the
morning. My brother came to the interview place and we went to the bus stop
where luckily, a taxi came. So we took the taxi.
Unfortunately, with some unfortunate twist of fate, the taxi
suddenly got a flat tyre. Wow. Of all the times to get a flat tyre. But yeah,
fortunately we were already sort of close to KL Sentral. Well, relatively
close. We still had to walk quite a distance and we had to drag two of or
luggage. But it wasn’t that bad because one of the luggage is normal size, but
not heavy and another one is pretty small so yeah. I had a backpack but what I
didn’t like was that I was still in my baju kurung. I couldn’t wait to get to
KL Sentral and change my clothes.
So we got there, bought a locker to stuff our luggage, I
went to change my clothes and became happier. Then my brother suggested we
watch a movie, since we had a lot of time left to spare. There was a movie
theatre in NU Central, which I just found out and I think it is such a
wonderful thing. So we watched Money Monster, a pretty good movie. We watched
it from 11 plus to 1 something, so we actually still had a lot of time to
spare, as our train was at 6pm.
As we didn’t have anything else to do, and we didn’t really
want to move anywhere, we just decided to wait at the place to wait for the
train (lol). It was really boring and even though I was listening to K-Pop I
sort of dozed off. Yeah, I was pretty tired. After a while some foreigners came
and then they were having a discussion of some sort and then they carried off
some of the benches and I’m like “What the heck are these people doing?”
Apparently they were shooting a film or something and the wanted to use that
place. Me, being the awkward potato I am, decided to run away when they got too
close because cameo or not I don’t want to be filmed. So I went to the toilet
and loitered around for a while before going back. When I came back we were
already sitting a bit far from the filming site and they were in the process of
filming it but honestly, I wasn’t that interested, just because I was so tired
and couldn’t wait to get home.
So they finished the filming, we waited and waited and then
at 5 something we went to take our luggage and bought some food for breaking
our fast in the train afterwards. We said goodbye to my brother, and waited
again for the train. Then the train arrived, we safely arrive home, good night.
16/6 (Thursday)
So, as I was tired from travelling, I woke up late. And as
usual, I wanted to catch up on what I’ve missed, like music shows and all that
so I did that. I know I had to travel to KL again tomorrow, since I’m going for
the UiTM interview, which is on 18/6. And then as I was happily browsing the
internet, suddenly there were people outside our gates. There was a car and
also a huge 4-wheel drive car with a huge ladder on top. There were people
ringing our bell and me and my brother of course didn’t answer the door. We
just waited until they went away (which was quite a while). But then they came
back! So we spied from upstairs and apparently they were cutting off our
electric supply. And then the electricity went out. So that was that. It was
around 2pm when they cut it.
I tried calling my parents, but they didn’t answer. Not
knowing what else to do, my brother and I decided to do the only thing we could
do at the time. Sleep. I opened my windows and luckily the weather was chilly
and so I slept peacefully. When I woke up my parents were back but I couldn’t
find my brother. So I tried telling them what happened and all that and they
immediately went back out to solve it. I called my brother and he told me he
was already out with his friends as they planned on breaking fast together.
So I was left alone again, and only then I realized I had to
check all the documents I needed for the interview. Only then did I realize I
had to photocopy some docs and have them certified, which was a huge pain in
the ass. My parents came back late at like 5pm and then we couldn’t get the
electricity back on so everyone was stressed and I had to add up by saying I
had to get these things certified. It was a bit of trouble but I managed to get
it thanks to my cousin’s efforts which I’m sorry and thankful for.
That night we had a romantic dinner and then I didn’t have
anything to do so I just sat around but then it started raining really heavily,
and the thunder were continuously thundering and lightning keeps flashing and I
was really afraid. Good thing I had my cat with me but it was really terrifying
for me. And I felt a bit of irritation on my throat so I could tell I was about
to catch a fever.
But yeah, that night we were like a castle during medieval
times using all the candles around the house. Good thing my train was on 10am
the next day.
17/6 (Friday)
I woke up, prepared my bags and docs and got ready to
travel. I already felt a bit unwell but I didn’t complain. Only my mom was
travelling with me this time so we went to the train station. We arrived a bit
early so we waited in the waiting room. And then my mom realized she left her phone
in the car as she was charging it (because we didn’t have electricity at home).
My phone was also dead so I couldn’t call my dad. Luckily there was a charging
port so I plugged it in and called my dad. It didn’t connect at first but then
my dad called back, just as the announcement saying we could enter the gates
were said. My dad said he was already close so we said okay we’ll wait, as
there was a bit of time before the train would arrive. So we waited at the
place, my dad came and we took the phone and then immediately just walked very
quickly. We made it of course, as there was still time. So that was that.
In the train, where I had hoped to charge my phone, as it
was dead, we realized that the train also did not have electricity or
something. The plug wasn’t working for the whole coach so I just didn’t care
anymore. But my mom went around and discovered that the plugs in the café coach
was working, so she went and charged both our phones there. Thank you mom!
So we arrived at KL, went to Universiti station, met Abang
and Kakak and went back home. Bought some food on the way for our break fast. I
also asked to buy some Panadol Soluble as I felt quite feverish already by
then. The train was so freaking cold by the way, my hands were frozen. So we
went back, I drank the Panadol, we ate and just relaxed. I knew better this
time so I prepared myself for the interview. Then it was good night. I wanted
to fangirl more with Kakak but I held myself back and said “No worries,
tomorrow after the interview is finished, there’s a lot more time for me to
fangirl and sleep and just do anything basically.” If only I knew what awaited
me the next fateful day.
18/6 (Saturday)
So okay. I woke up and had sahur. I ate what I could but I
was feeling a bit nauseous probably because of the soluble yesterday. I got
ready and so we went to Palam. We arrived quite early and when we reached the
building there was a nice parking place so we parked there. Since there wasn’t
a lot of people yet I decided to wait in the car. Just mentally preparing
myself. Then there’s a car stopping and asking some of the guy students at the
side of the road something. My mom said “Oh he’s just dropping his kid” and lo
and behold his kid turns out to be my crush. Hmm.
Being the shameless person I was I told everyone in the car
like “Oh hmm yeah I kinda fancy that guy” and I was met with a lot of support.
HAHAHAHA. Kakak and my mom were like “Oohh yeah he’s kinda cute” OMG can you
believe it? Cue my XD face. I was like “Of course he’s cute I have good tastes”
lol.
Anyway, we went to the building, I met up with some of my
former housemates and classmates, then waited for Hannan. After meeting her we
went up to the room. We had a writing test first before the interview and all
so yeah. Again, I’m not gonna talk about the interview. I’ll write it soon
hopefully.
So okay, I was the 5th person from my panel so I
finished quite early, around 11 plus. So I went down and just headed to the car
because I thought they were waiting in the car. I was happily walking, thinking
how it’s over, when something shocking was waiting for me. Namely a shattered
car window.
That’s right, when I got to the car, I realized that the
passenger’s seat’s window was shattered, like, completely shattered. I was so
shocked and didn’t know what to do. What happened? Did someone broke in? Was my
family injured? But all the broken pieces of window were clean and they were
broken in place so I had hoped that no one got hurt. So I went back to the
building and called my mom asking where she was and she sounded normal and told
me where they were. So we met up and everyone looked normal so I knew then that
they didn’t know what happened yet.
When we met up I immediately asked “Did anyone went to the
car yet? Because something terrible has happened.”
And so there it goes. While all this was happening, there
were some pakciks mowing the grass nearby so we immediately pinpointed them as
the cause of it. Which is true anyway. My mom called this one pakcik who was
potong rumput and told him what happened but then this pakcik was like “Bila
parking?” in a blaming tone and my sister wasn’t taking any bs so she sort of
raised her voice and said “Dari pagi tadi lagi!”
And then this pakcik had the nerve to get angry at us! He
went all “Tak perlu la marah- marah akak!” Wooaahh you did not just do that.
Now that I’m thinking back on it I’m angry at that pakcik, but at the time I
was just scared because I was afraid that my mom or sister would yell back at
him and then they would fight and then this pakcik looked really unstable so
what if he suddenly lose it and start throwing punches okay let’s not go there.
So yeah I was worried, because we’re all ladies plus my brother, who is not the
most intimidating person you’d seen.
Luckily, no one raised their voice. So yeah, my mom went
around and asked to see the pakcik’s boss and all so she went to the office. So
Kakak, Abang and I waited at the bench nearby, where it faced the car. Then the
boss came and look at the damage and everything so we were going to file a
report and all that so he brought my mom and sister to the polis bantuan and
the main office or whatever, which left me and Abang at the car. We must’ve
looked quite interesting, sitting at the bench with an umbrella (because it was
quite hot), just looking at the car. If someone was to walk by and asked what
we were looking at I would’ve answered I’m looking at all the shattered window,
like my hopes and dreams. So dramatic.
Anyways, so my brother and I waited for them and it was
quite a wait. We had to move because there was some people blowing the dry
leaves and stuffs so we went to sit at the bus stop. We waited and waited and
then they came back with the people who are gonna help clean up the broken
pieces. It’s my sister’s car btw and the whole window was shattered, some of it
already fell from the frame while there was still some around it. So these
people helped clean up whatever they could, they helped clean up the
passenger’s seat which had the most fragments.
And then what? How are we supposed to go back? How is Kakak
supposed to drive the car? Thankfully a kind pakcik (not to be confused with
the pakcik-potong-rumput-yang-kurang-asam) helped us and told us to tape a
plastic at the window so that no small fragments would fly when driving. So we
did what we could and taped a black plastic bag on it. It was the best we could
do at the time but Kakak had to drive really carefully and like she said, she
felt blinded. Of course, you couldn’t see anything on your left and the side
mirror too.
So first things first, we went to the nearest balai polis to
file the report. It was really difficult because the plastic was causing a lot
of noise too. We reached there, with the help of Kakak’s Google Map. Then this
guy said he couldn’t sahkan or luluskan that report or something. So my mom
asked where we can do it. He said any main police station could do it, but they
couldn’t because it was just a pondok. Well why didn’t the polis bantuan at
Palam told us that earlier?? So we asked where the nearest one is. This guy
then had to call some people to know the location because he also didn’t know.
Very helpful you.
So we had to go elsewhere, so my sister set the Map but then
I was the one who had to hold it. This was very intimidating for me because
we’ve had bad experiences with Google Map before. So I was nervous, we were on
the right road but then of course, our phones being very cheap decided to just
suddenly exit the Google Map app. I sort of freaked out and explained carefully
that the phone just exited the app but Kakak was already very tense so I tried
my best to get it back on and on track. We managed to get to the place, and
again waited for the police to do the report or whatever.
It took a while and so the report thingies are solved. But
the window is still empty and so we had to find any shop that could fix it, and
fix it fast because it was already around 2pm and mom and I had a train at 6pm.
So we tried the car shops around but they couldn’t get it fixed in a day and it
was a Saturday too so most of them are working half-time. So we had to think of
another way when I decided to seek Mr. Google for help. I then found a YouTube
video and read the description where he said he covered up the empty frame with
a clear vinyl.
So I suggested it and was surprisingly accepted. I don’t
know how we didn’t think of that before but yeah I kinda felt proud that I was
the one who searched and suggested it. So we went around the shops and looked
for the vinyl, you know, those clear see through sheets that you use to either
wrap your textbooks or tablecloth sometimes. My mom found it and so we decided
to fix it at home, because it was gonna take some time and since we already got
the solution let’s just get back home first.
We then drove back very carefully and Alhamdulillah managed
to get back home safely. It was already 3pm and we had to move at 4 if we want
to be on time for the train. So we immediately started wrapping the window, and
packed our bags. I did mention that I was sick right? I had a fever and being
in the sun did not help at all. Even the aircond in the car didn’t work because
the window was empty. So yeah I bear with it and now that I’m home I ate some
biscuits and drank the soluble (as I wasn’t fasting oops). We didn’t even
manage to sit down and rest because we had a train to catch. So just exactly at
4 something we moved and once again Alhamdulillah, the vinyl worked. It wasn’t
as noisy, and Kakak could see better. We dropped Abang at UM first, and then
went to Kakak’s apartment. From there we walked to the station and rode the LRT
to KL Sentral. We reached there at about 5.40pm so we had time to sit for a
while and wait for the train.
After that, everything went okay, we rode the train, break
our fast and reached Alor Setar at 10pm. We grabbed some supper at Hussein
where we told my dad and Paan what happened and yeah it was all very tiring.
So that was my experience these past few days. A super long
post for super long days. I was thankful nothing bad happened, and today my
sister said she got the car fixed so that’s great. But it was such a tiring
journey and I just felt it a bit worse because I was having a fever. Seriously,
having a fever sucks.
What about my two interviews? Who cares about that when more
interesting things happen right? Nah, just kidding, I’ll find some time to
write about my experiences soon. After these long days I don’t think I’m gonna
go out any time soon. I mean, I’m a hermit as it is but after going out for so
long I think I’ll enjoy my time inside alright?
That’s about it I guess. What an experience.
TL;DR
14/6 - Went to KL
15/6 - UM iv, went back AS
16/6 - Electricity got cut off, starting to feel sick
17/6 - Went back to KL, sick
18/6 - UiTM iv, car's window shattered, more sick, went back AS
Sunday, June 12
desufnoC
I got the interview for TESL at UM. Alhamdulillah.
Am I nervous? Of course I am. I am 10x more nervous. Why? Because I've got to think of the reasons why I would like to decline this offer.
TESL is my 2nd choice. My first choice is Literature. Now, I don't know about you, but I think that most people would find it odd because a lot of people would want to take TESL instead of Lit, but I'm asking for the opposite. So why do I want to take Lit instead of TESL?
You see, TESL stands for Teaching English as Second Language. The motive of this course is to create future educators, meaning people who will teach, be it school teachers or lecturers. And I don't really inspire to be an educator. It sounds really bad doesn't it? Being an educator is a really honorable job, but I just don't have that in me. I've never been a person who knew how to explain something to someone in an understandable way. Even when my friends used to ask me questions I would know the answers but how exactly I got to that answer, I would have difficulty explaining that.
Most of my friends who wanted to take TESL are prepared to be teachers, they have it in them to teach, they want to teach. But I don't. If you ask me to picture myself having a job, I would never imagine myself teaching. I just don't have the passion. That is why I felt really surprised and also a little bit proud of my brother when he once said he wanted to be a high school teacher specifically, because he wanted to teach students and guide them and be a good teacher like one of his teachers who he liked. I felt great for him, because he knows what he wants to do, because he has that ambition. Unlike me.
So if I don't want to be a teacher, what would I want to be? What do I plan to be by taking Literature? Honestly, I don't know. I would love to be a writer, but somehow it feels really far away. I know I sound very negative, which is why I won't mention it in the interview. I would say, I want to be a writer, or a person involved in the writing world. What. You know... like... editors or something? I wouldn't mind working with a newspaper or magazine company, as long as it involves writing, in English of course. Being directly involved with a book would be even better Being an author, would be a dream come true.
Why do I want to be a writer so much? I don't know, it feels special. Because I've always been moved by books, fictional ones, of course, Think about it, a book is just words written on paper, but you could enjoy a good laugh or be moved to tears by it. When I think about all these things it feels amazing, thinking about the authors who wrote these books, knowing they were able to move their readers, I just find it amazing. And I would love to know that feeling someday. Cheeeyyy ayat cheesy habis...
I just find stories, not just books in general, very interesting. You can learn so much just by knowing stories. Which is why I find it weird when people do stuff that they know would only bring negatives effects. Haven't they watched enough dramas to know that having a boyfriend just because you want to seem cool wouldn't actually make you cool? And who's to say your boyfriend will be loyal to you? Haven't you learned anything from dramas? Because I've learned all this from dramas, I avoid them. That is also why sometimes when a person I know suddenly gets in trouble or become sad because of a thing I knew would happen eventually, sometimes I just want to say 'I saw that coming already' and 'haven't you learned anything from dramas?'. That's basically my tagline for today, "Haven't you learned anything from dramas?"
Anyway, I've gone off topic. Stories. Yes. I love them to bits. I especially love reading the reviews of these stories to discover even more interesting details that I might've missed, and the readers interpretation of what happened and how the readers could link it to our every day lives. It really makes you think and it's basically up to one's imagination to interpret a story. You really learn a lot while reading, and I really love that.
Just for example, in Harry Potter, you know how they have those four houses, Gryffindor, Slytherin, Hufflepuff and Ravenclaw. These four houses each have a value which they treasure more than others, and it gives the people in those houses stereotypes. Like, Gryffindor being brave idiots, Slytherin being evil guys, Hufflepuff being weak and Ravenclaw prideful smartass. Most students stick to these, so they don't really become friends with each other. But after reading the stories, you learn not to judge others based on their houses, because it doesn't work that way. So when you apply it in real life, you shouldn't judge others on what they look like, or their ethnicity or race, because that doesn't determine who they are.
Also, maybe this interest in reading and stories is because I have been reading ever since I was a kid. My favorite books were by Enid Blyton and I love her stories. I think they're really good books for kids. It has helped me become the person I am today. Hahahaha lol. But really though, I would say my English skills come from those books, and also my parents speaking in English at times too.
This post is just all over the place. I have really sunken. Abandon ship. Abort. Abort.
Thursday, June 9
MONSTA X
YES! I managed to write this post before moving on to another group! Phew! As you can see from the post title, I am going to write about Monsta X, the group I'm currently stanning right now.
Let me give you a little bit of the group's background before going into each member. I'm not writing their name in all caps even though on the official channel it's usually all in caps, but I'm just lazy to hold the shift button so I'm writing their name as Monsta X and not MONSTA X, just in case anyone is going to complain.
Monsta X is a 7-member Korean boygroup. They are under Starship Entertainment, the same company as Sistar, Boyfriend, K.Will etc. They are actually from a survival program, which surprised me because I heard their name before, and when I first got into them I didn't know that. Then I watched one of their variety show and read the comments and that's when I found out that they were actually in a survival program to determine who gets to debut. You know, like WINNER and iKON thingy.
The survival program is called 'No Mercy' and boy was it cruel. I've never watched any survival programs, and I was never interested to watch any of it anyway because it's just so cruel. You have to fight friends who you've trained with for years, and then suddenly get new trainees who you would immediately hate, and also the effect of the show's editing making people have a bad impression of you. I don't like the concept of survival programs basically. But just for these guys, I watched it. And boy how hard it was watching it.
I don't know how it is for the people who watched it from the beginning until the last line-up at the time they were broadcasting it, because I am the person who got to know Monsta X first, then decided to watch it. For me, it was difficult because I already knew who gets to debut, so I feel bad for all the other trainees who didn't make it. And I also feel bad when I see the current members facing a difficult situation and also reading the comments saying this member shouldn't have won, this trainee was better etc. But anyways, it's been a year and a lot of people are satisfied with the line-up. So that's cool.
Enough depressing things, let's get to know the members! We'll start with the oldest, as always.
Wonho is a sin. I could not search for his pictures because currently it is the fasting month and I am going to lose some pahalas if I search for his pictures. Wanna know why? Because this guy just could not keep a shirt on. Okay, I'm just kidding. But seriously though, he himself admits that he is confident about his body and was born sexy. Can you believe this guy? In 'No Mercy' he took off his shirt during one of the performances, in Dream Concert he did the same, in the Trespass MV too during his part he flashes his abs unnecessarily, and in Hero perfs he is the regular person revealing abs every time. When you see Wonho, you think sexy. But of course, there's a lot more to him than just taking off shirts and flashing abs. He was an Ulzang (or whatever) meaning he was known to be pretty. And he has a slight lisp or something but it makes him cute. To me, even though he is sexy he is actually a cutie pie because the way he speaks and also the way he treats the fans. I personally think he's the best when it comes to treating fans because he always mentions them.
The fandom is called Monbebe btw, because 'Mon' in French means 'My' so Monsta X is 'My Star' while the fandom is Monbebe, 'My Bebe'. I think this just really adds to the cuteness factor of Monsta X because they come out with such strong songs but are so cute with fans.
Whenever Wonho says Monbebe, to me it just feels special. It feels like he really adores them. Not saying that the other members don't, but somehow I feel like Wonho is special. Even when they won an award and was speechless because they did not expect it at all, the first person he thanked was Monbebes, and to me that means he really appreciates the fans. Even when he bungee-jumped he mentions Monbebes. Oh yeah, he has a fear of heights, but on their variety show called 'Right Now!' they went to Macau and he and Kihyun had to bungee because they lost the game before, and he managed to do it. I felt really proud of him because he was really afraid (he has a phobia of heights for heaven's sake!) and he even cried but he still jumped in the end. Even when they were in the elevator going up and they could see the outside view he slowly sat down and just looked at the floor while holding the members hands, which was really sweet actually. I also worry about him sometimes because I'm afraid he would push himself too hard, like he once did in 'No Mercy'. He's really hard-working and is composing some songs, but they haven't made it to the album yet. People are hoping they make it into the next album. He has a nice voice but he is that member in the group that usually has just one or two lines.
He also cries pretty easily as Shownu once said he cried while watching a movie. And it's really heart-wrenching to see him cry especially this one time in 'No Mercy'. He sounded really choked up and it was just so sad. He also cried when they first won an award.
Let me give you a little bit of the group's background before going into each member. I'm not writing their name in all caps even though on the official channel it's usually all in caps, but I'm just lazy to hold the shift button so I'm writing their name as Monsta X and not MONSTA X, just in case anyone is going to complain.
Monsta X is a 7-member Korean boygroup. They are under Starship Entertainment, the same company as Sistar, Boyfriend, K.Will etc. They are actually from a survival program, which surprised me because I heard their name before, and when I first got into them I didn't know that. Then I watched one of their variety show and read the comments and that's when I found out that they were actually in a survival program to determine who gets to debut. You know, like WINNER and iKON thingy.
The survival program is called 'No Mercy' and boy was it cruel. I've never watched any survival programs, and I was never interested to watch any of it anyway because it's just so cruel. You have to fight friends who you've trained with for years, and then suddenly get new trainees who you would immediately hate, and also the effect of the show's editing making people have a bad impression of you. I don't like the concept of survival programs basically. But just for these guys, I watched it. And boy how hard it was watching it.
I don't know how it is for the people who watched it from the beginning until the last line-up at the time they were broadcasting it, because I am the person who got to know Monsta X first, then decided to watch it. For me, it was difficult because I already knew who gets to debut, so I feel bad for all the other trainees who didn't make it. And I also feel bad when I see the current members facing a difficult situation and also reading the comments saying this member shouldn't have won, this trainee was better etc. But anyways, it's been a year and a lot of people are satisfied with the line-up. So that's cool.
Enough depressing things, let's get to know the members! We'll start with the oldest, as always.
SHOWNU
Stage name : Shownu
Real name : Son Hyunwoo
92-liner
Shownu is the leader of the group. He was actually a back-up dancer pre-debut and was one of the main guy dancer in Lee Hyori's Bad Girl. He was also in JYP for a while and trained with GOT7 so he's pretty close with them. The members also said that he's the one with the most connections and he said that was because he wasted a lot of time back then. He is an all-rounder for me, because he is one of the main vocal and is considered the best dancer. You might not see it from the picture but he's very muscular. He can be awkward sometimes but also adorable and funny. Overall, a hot cinnamon bun.
For me, because I like the cute ones, he's not very high on my bias list, but he has his moments. He is more handsome than cute for me. But he must be a really great guy because when they were asked who would they date if they were girls, 5/6 (not including Shownu himself of course) picked him. He's pretty quiet compared to the other members, but when his variety sense tingle you can expect a good laugh. Also, he plays the Dad role in the group, not only because he's the leader and oldest, but because he acts like one. He can also swim and was on some sports show or something. He's pretty adventurous as he volunteered to bungee-jump during their variety show even though he didn't have to, but he wanted to. He said when else are we going to have this chance? Good for you Shownu. He was also the one able to finish the whole stinky tofu and even said it didn't taste too bad.
For me, because I like the cute ones, he's not very high on my bias list, but he has his moments. He is more handsome than cute for me. But he must be a really great guy because when they were asked who would they date if they were girls, 5/6 (not including Shownu himself of course) picked him. He's pretty quiet compared to the other members, but when his variety sense tingle you can expect a good laugh. Also, he plays the Dad role in the group, not only because he's the leader and oldest, but because he acts like one. He can also swim and was on some sports show or something. He's pretty adventurous as he volunteered to bungee-jump during their variety show even though he didn't have to, but he wanted to. He said when else are we going to have this chance? Good for you Shownu. He was also the one able to finish the whole stinky tofu and even said it didn't taste too bad.
WONHO
Stage name : Wonho
Real name : Shin Hoseok
Early 93-liner, so he's the same age as Shownu
The fandom is called Monbebe btw, because 'Mon' in French means 'My' so Monsta X is 'My Star' while the fandom is Monbebe, 'My Bebe'. I think this just really adds to the cuteness factor of Monsta X because they come out with such strong songs but are so cute with fans.
Whenever Wonho says Monbebe, to me it just feels special. It feels like he really adores them. Not saying that the other members don't, but somehow I feel like Wonho is special. Even when they won an award and was speechless because they did not expect it at all, the first person he thanked was Monbebes, and to me that means he really appreciates the fans. Even when he bungee-jumped he mentions Monbebes. Oh yeah, he has a fear of heights, but on their variety show called 'Right Now!' they went to Macau and he and Kihyun had to bungee because they lost the game before, and he managed to do it. I felt really proud of him because he was really afraid (he has a phobia of heights for heaven's sake!) and he even cried but he still jumped in the end. Even when they were in the elevator going up and they could see the outside view he slowly sat down and just looked at the floor while holding the members hands, which was really sweet actually. I also worry about him sometimes because I'm afraid he would push himself too hard, like he once did in 'No Mercy'. He's really hard-working and is composing some songs, but they haven't made it to the album yet. People are hoping they make it into the next album. He has a nice voice but he is that member in the group that usually has just one or two lines.
He also cries pretty easily as Shownu once said he cried while watching a movie. And it's really heart-wrenching to see him cry especially this one time in 'No Mercy'. He sounded really choked up and it was just so sad. He also cried when they first won an award.
MINHYUK
Stage name : Minhyuk
Full name : Lee Minhyuk
93-liner
Minhyuk is a ball of sunshine. His smile cures cancer. He is the mood maker of the group and he talks a lot. Sometimes the other members have to shut him up. He wants to be an MC and it shows. He's usually the one handling the flow of their talks and even when he's not the MC, he's the MC. Seriously, he really talks a lot. But it's fine, because some of the members are pretty quiet so to avoid awkward silences we have Minhyuk. You can always expect to see a smile from him and as I said before, his smile is just dazzling. Even during performances when it's his part you get mesmerized by his smile. People would always comment asking who's the blond cutie. I especially like him in Rush performances because I think the song suits him well and I saw a fancam of him during one of the performance and his expressions are just on point. He really looks like he enjoys performing and that's really nice to look at. He is also like Wonho, the member that only gets one or two lines.
While he is sort of the happy-virus in the group, there was also a time when fans got offended because they felt like he said Zico from Block B was ugly. What actually happened was that there was a question asking Jooheon what he feels being compared to Zico, and Minhyuk was the one who read the question. So he read that and said something like "honestly, it's a bit annoying right?" But then Jooheon didn't get to answer before they did something else. So people were offended. I personally agree with him because these days especially fans are always comparing idols and it can get annoying. But anyway, people were offended, and Minhyuk is the kind of person who always pays attention to people's reactions meaning he always goes online and reads the comments and reviews so of course he knew he made a 'mistake'. So he apologized but of course he was quite down on some shows because of this. I also only knew about this thing because I watched ASC and noticed he was so so so quiet and he didn't even smile. So I did some research and that's where I know about this. It feels really sad to see him so quiet and down especially because I'm so used to seeing him smile. But I'm actually glad that this happened early because now he would be more careful and the case wasn't such a big deal because they weren't very popular at the time.
Like Wonho, Minhyuk also seems to cry easily. You can't really count on 'No Mercy' because literally everyone cried on that show. But yeah, he can easily tear up and it always shows. I remember one time when Kihyun read the letter from his mom on one of their shows and it wasn't supposed to be too sad but I could see him tearing up. He's such a sweet person really.
While he is sort of the happy-virus in the group, there was also a time when fans got offended because they felt like he said Zico from Block B was ugly. What actually happened was that there was a question asking Jooheon what he feels being compared to Zico, and Minhyuk was the one who read the question. So he read that and said something like "honestly, it's a bit annoying right?" But then Jooheon didn't get to answer before they did something else. So people were offended. I personally agree with him because these days especially fans are always comparing idols and it can get annoying. But anyway, people were offended, and Minhyuk is the kind of person who always pays attention to people's reactions meaning he always goes online and reads the comments and reviews so of course he knew he made a 'mistake'. So he apologized but of course he was quite down on some shows because of this. I also only knew about this thing because I watched ASC and noticed he was so so so quiet and he didn't even smile. So I did some research and that's where I know about this. It feels really sad to see him so quiet and down especially because I'm so used to seeing him smile. But I'm actually glad that this happened early because now he would be more careful and the case wasn't such a big deal because they weren't very popular at the time.
Like Wonho, Minhyuk also seems to cry easily. You can't really count on 'No Mercy' because literally everyone cried on that show. But yeah, he can easily tear up and it always shows. I remember one time when Kihyun read the letter from his mom on one of their shows and it wasn't supposed to be too sad but I could see him tearing up. He's such a sweet person really.
KIHYUN
Stage name : Kihyun
Full name : Yoo Kihyun
93-liner
Full name : Yoo Kihyun
93-liner
Kihyun is the mom of the group. At least, that's what the members say. He is the mom because he is usually the one cooking and also cleaning in the dorm. But don't be fooled, this guy can be a devil sometimes. There's a lot of moments where he plays a prank on the other members and also cutting off Wonho when he's talking. But despite all that he's still a cutie. He's the shortest member along with I.M but don't tell him that. I really love it when he laughs whether it is soundless or high-pitched. When it's soundless his face looks so funny and is enough to make me laugh too. When there's a sound it also sounds great. Basically I like his laugh. He is the main vocal of the group and his voice is amazing. Even in 'No Mercy' his vocal skills were already acknowledged and his performance of 'Hyeya' was legendary. He is also part of the Starship Triplets, consisting of him, Jeongmin of Boyfriend and Yoo Seungwoo, a solo singer if I'm not mistaken. This triplets sounds so good together and they're all cute too (what a combo!) He also went on Masked Singer so yeah, our main vocal Kihyun everybody.
Because he's short, he can easily look cute, and he is. But somehow his aegyo is... hit or miss? Sometimes it's okay but most of the times even he himself gets embarrassed. He changed the 'Gwiyomi song' to 'Kihyoni' because of his name and the members always bring that up. The members also voted him as the most baby-like or something like that. They said because he usually acts cute but it's not aegyo, for example falling down cutely. And I did saw the video of it and it was cute. The members also said that he's the one that loves compliments the most, like being babied. He's also very confident, there was one time where they joked about dissecting Kihyun and they said they would find self-confidence in there. When there was a question asking 'Honestly, I'm good-looking' only Kihyun and Shownu answered O while the others answered X. Which makes me really mad because how dare the other members think they're not good-looking?! I will fight you!
Of course, he also faced some difficult times. One of it was a former schoolmate or someone digged up about his past as a student and said he used to smoke and drink even though he's underage. Again, I only knew this because there was a show where they appeared and he didn't smile at all, because of the incident. Even though they didn't do anything on the show we could still see how down he was. Again, I'm glad it happened early so now people don't really care about that. He is a cutie with a beautiful voice people!
HYUNGWON
Stage name: Hyungwon
Full name : Chae Hyungwon
Early 94-liner, so he's the same age as Minhyuk and Kihyun
Okay, I will start off by saying the first video of Monsta X that I watched was of Hyungwon. It was titled 'Monsta X Hyungwon sleeping compilation'. Yes, I was that bored and the thumbnail looked cute enough so why not? After that it moved on to Weekly Idol and by then it was too late.
Hyungwon is the blur one in the group. He is very good-looking, but also looks lost or sleepy or sick at the same time. He is the tallest in the group, and has modeled before. Basically, he's the visual. Despite this though, he doesn't really care about images, and is our resident meme. Seriously, if you find his pictures, you can find a lot of beautiful ones, but also a lot of meme-worthy pictures. He even wore a frog headgear or something at a fan-sign recently and he looked so hilarious. He also does weird stuff when people least expect it. Like when they asked him to do a catwalk and he walked with a tray of food once, and another time he posed like a compass and it's just hilarious. He is also viewed as the weakest in terms of physical strength in the team, but he is actually pretty built. He showed his abs before during Hero perfs and his arms are pretty muscular. But because he is tall, he usually looks skinny. Not that I'm complaining because I prefer skinny guys *winky-face*
He might be viewed as the weakest physically but he can be pretty scary? Like, as a hyung (older brother) he could be really serious. The first time I noticed this was in 'No Mercy' when they played a hidden camera and he acted as if he was angry at another trainee who was younger and wow did he play that role well. He went all 'I'm older than you so you better watch it' and even cursed. Another time was when Jooheon jokingly said he seems like a bad referee and Hyungwon was like "...what?" and Jooheon just immediately apologized. He also mentioned that the first time he met Jooheon he wanted to hit him so yeah better watch out for Hyungwon people.
I don't think there's an official visual of the group but Hyungwon, Wonho and Mihyuk are called the visual line even in 'No Mercy'. I feel protective of Hyungwon because people might say he's only in Monsta X because of his looks, which really hurts. But I can see where people might get the idea especially if they've watched 'No Mercy'. During the show, he wasn't ranked very low, but usually in the middle. But he doesn't stand out a lot in the show, besides the moments where they compliment his good looks. He is actually a really good dancer but Shownu usually gets highlighted more. His voice is different. I mean, I'm not an expert or anything but his voice would sound really good with certain kinds of songs. He never really stood out until like the last performance and even the judges were surprised and said he improved a lot. The song that he performed was 'Interstellar' and I think his voice really suits the song. In the albums though he also usually has one or two lines. I guess the visual line are all in the same boat.
Also, he choreographed a short dance and they uploaded it on their channel. He, Shownu and Wonho danced and it was pretty hot. So yeah, I will fight anyone saying he's only a pretty boy!
Hyungwon is the blur one in the group. He is very good-looking, but also looks lost or sleepy or sick at the same time. He is the tallest in the group, and has modeled before. Basically, he's the visual. Despite this though, he doesn't really care about images, and is our resident meme. Seriously, if you find his pictures, you can find a lot of beautiful ones, but also a lot of meme-worthy pictures. He even wore a frog headgear or something at a fan-sign recently and he looked so hilarious. He also does weird stuff when people least expect it. Like when they asked him to do a catwalk and he walked with a tray of food once, and another time he posed like a compass and it's just hilarious. He is also viewed as the weakest in terms of physical strength in the team, but he is actually pretty built. He showed his abs before during Hero perfs and his arms are pretty muscular. But because he is tall, he usually looks skinny. Not that I'm complaining because I prefer skinny guys *winky-face*
He might be viewed as the weakest physically but he can be pretty scary? Like, as a hyung (older brother) he could be really serious. The first time I noticed this was in 'No Mercy' when they played a hidden camera and he acted as if he was angry at another trainee who was younger and wow did he play that role well. He went all 'I'm older than you so you better watch it' and even cursed. Another time was when Jooheon jokingly said he seems like a bad referee and Hyungwon was like "...what?" and Jooheon just immediately apologized. He also mentioned that the first time he met Jooheon he wanted to hit him so yeah better watch out for Hyungwon people.
I don't think there's an official visual of the group but Hyungwon, Wonho and Mihyuk are called the visual line even in 'No Mercy'. I feel protective of Hyungwon because people might say he's only in Monsta X because of his looks, which really hurts. But I can see where people might get the idea especially if they've watched 'No Mercy'. During the show, he wasn't ranked very low, but usually in the middle. But he doesn't stand out a lot in the show, besides the moments where they compliment his good looks. He is actually a really good dancer but Shownu usually gets highlighted more. His voice is different. I mean, I'm not an expert or anything but his voice would sound really good with certain kinds of songs. He never really stood out until like the last performance and even the judges were surprised and said he improved a lot. The song that he performed was 'Interstellar' and I think his voice really suits the song. In the albums though he also usually has one or two lines. I guess the visual line are all in the same boat.
Also, he choreographed a short dance and they uploaded it on their channel. He, Shownu and Wonho danced and it was pretty hot. So yeah, I will fight anyone saying he's only a pretty boy!
JOOHEON
Stage name : Jooheon
Full name : Lee Jooheon
94-liner
Jooheon is the rapper of the group. He is the most known member as he has featured on a lot of artists' songs and was on SMTM and stuff so he's pretty famous. His rapping skills is no joke and while I'm not really into raps and stuffs I think he's really charismatic when he's rapping. Even in 'No Mercy' he was ranked no. 1 and was the top competitor alongside Shownu. Due to his rapping you might see him as arrogant but you need a lil bit of arrogance to look cool. Which is why he keeps doing aegyo on shows so that people would see that he is actually a really bright person. And his aegyo is also no joke. He could make his voice sound very cute and when he does aegyo his eyes would become smaller and just makes him cuter really.
While he is the most famous member I feel that he might be pressured to promote the group more but I think he's doing well. But he did lose weight during the most recent comeback and I hope it's because of practices and not diets because he did say he looked chubbier on tv but I personally think he looks perfect the way he is. Don't starve yourself Jooheon! Monbebes love you the way you are! He also composed a few songs for himself and for the group, the one I remember is 'White Sugar' which is a really sweet song (pun not intended). Oh yeah, did I mention that he's a big scaredy cat? When he raps he's all fierce but once confronted with the hidden box game he's out. He's basically scared of everything, bugs, ghosts, dried fishes(?). Again, this only makes him more adorable.
I.M
Stage name : I.M
Real name : Lim Changkyun
96-liner
Last but not least we have our beloved maknae I.M~! He is the youngest in the group (obviously) but the members always make fun of him saying he's the 'oldest looking maknae', which is kinda true because he has a mature looking face, and a deep voice too. He is also a rapper. I also feel protective over I.M, because he was actually added in 'No Mercy' later after 3 of the trainees were eliminated. Of course, the trainees were super pissed off because 3 of their friends were eliminated and then suddenly this guy just comes in to the show like that? They really disliked him then and it was so hard to watch the show because the situation was just really awkward and tense. Luckily he was in the same team with Jooheon and Jooheon spoke to him and told him his honest feelings and all because they had to work together for the performance. Imagine how it was when at the end of the show, he was also picked as a winner. I imagined a lot of people might feel angry and that they might think the producers promised to make him debut or something but hey, we'll never know the truth.
I'm really glad he was chosen though because he's a really great rapper and I think because his voice is deep whereas Jooheon's is like the nasally-kind they blend well together. And he's a really funny person too. He can speak English a lil bit and is also pretty good in aegyo. Isn't it funny how the rappers are the ones who are good in aegyo? I was also worried about his relationship with the members because no one really liked him in 'No Mercy' so it was quite worrying. I guess they were a bit awkward in the beginning but of course with time they eventually opened up with each other. He's really funny too so it won't be hard to like him. I think he's the closest with Jooheon, given that they're both rappers and also the younger dongsaengs. He also mentioned once that he was thankful to Kihyun because Kihyun is soft with his words and always thinks about the other person's feelings so kudos to you Kihyun-mom!
So that's about it for all the members. It actually took me two days to write all this (mainly because I was lazy keke). There's really a lot more for me to write (seriously though) but I'll just stop here. You won't really know the members well enough just by what I wrote so go and find some videos of them to watch! Check them out because they're really great. But then again, that's what I say about all the groups I like... and they're currently my bias group so...
You can also see who I'm interested in with how long the paragraphs are. Try and guess who my bias is. No, don't guess, I'll just tell you. It's Hyungwon :D
A fair warning though, once you're in,
"There's no exit"
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