Lonely.
When I was human, I was the son of the school principal. No one approached me and the teachers were too afraid to scold me whenever I fell asleep in class, which is often. Some of you would say it's a blessing, but it was more of a curse. No one ever talked to me, so I never knew what it was like to have a friend.
Even at home, my father would be too busy with work and my mother would look at her gossip magazines more often than she would look at me. I am an only child, so there's no siblings to fight with. Pets? My mother's allergic to fur. I don't even know what it's like to have a company.
Lonely.
Then there was the accident that happened that took my life. The police wrote down the cause of death as blood loss, but it was more like death by loneliness. My parents weren't very sad about my death though. I guess they just sometimes forget that they have a son. Nature took its course and I ended up as a Hollow in Hueco Mundo. I was kinda confused at first, and asked some passing Hollow where I was. Just as I approached the guy, he suddenly collapsed and disintegrated. This happened for some time until I found out why it kept happening. My reiatsu was strong. So strong that any low-spirited Hollow will collapse within a mile radius. And so, I walked around by myself.
Lonely.
It was really quiet around Hueco Mundo. Well, what can you expect? There's no one around. One day I decided to sit down on the endless sand for a while. Then suddenly, I felt like talking to myself. It was a weird conversation. And then I was arguing with myself. Then the arguing side of me felt angrier and suddenly my soul felt like it was splitting in two. Tadaa~ Lilynette was born. She is also me, but somehow an alternate personality? She was born/made out of my loneliness. But at least I wasn't lonely anymore, not with the quick-tempered brat.
A company.
We made a good pair, Lilynette and I. We lived well. One day, a person came and was surprised to see the mountain of Hollows that died on their own, just because they were close to us. He looked strong. He didn't stumble even when he came close to us. He said he was looking for comrades. I asked him whether his comrades were strong. He told me to find out myself. I took the bait, because I had nothing to lose. And if this man was serious, then I'll have comrades too. Some people said the man was evil, but to me, he was my hope.
Hope for this loneliness.
I was introduced to the Espada. Apparently they were the strongest in Aizen's army. I'll admit it, they didn't look that strong but I could feel it. Their reiatsu. Strong and unwavering. And so, I climbed my way through the ranks, and ended up being Primera. Some people weren't happy about that *cough*Barragan*cough*. But my days were filled with random chaos and weird situations usually involving Gin. That fox-face. I didn't realize it, but this was what it felt like. To have people around you, a company, comrades. I wouldn't go so far as calling us friends, cos some of us hate each other's gut. But still, here I am, surrounded by strong comrades, working together albeit reluctantly.
I am not alone. Not anymore.
End.
Notes :
- When a person dies, he will turn into a soul and when any Shinigami (death god) cleanse them they will go to Soul Society, the good place where everyone usually goes after death. But then some unfortunate souls will turn into Hollows, and will go to Hueco Mundo, the bad place full of grey sand where it's eat or be eaten.
- Reiatsu - something like an aura , or spirit particle. Really strong reiatsu can kill anyone who is weak.
- Primera - First in Spanish.
- Nakama means comrades in Japanese.
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