Hello and greetings everyone!
*cricket noises*
Yeah… starting the post always feels awkward because I’m not
exactly sure who I’m talking to. Writing
to. Yeah whatever. This blog is created just for me to write about anything I
want to write so today I am going to write about erm… err… a certain someone
who I have a crush on.
Yeah, that’s right, even this weirdass person is capable of
having a crush on someone. Don’t judge me.
It all started last sem, when I was still in Shah Alam.
There were not many TESL students in Shah Alam and we seem to have very few guy
students in the program. I only had two guys in my class. So naturally we
looked out to these few guys and people seem to say that there is no one
handsome in TESL. Some of the popular guys were not that bad in terms of looks
but popular people just aren’t my type. And then I remembered seeing this one
guy who was kinda good-looking but I didn’t know who it was. But I did tell my
friends that there is a guy who is kinda cute in my opinion. I couldn’t tell
them who since I didn’t know who he is so I sort of looked out for that guy so
that I could show my friends.
This was where it began.
I noticed that guy, who we will call the “cute guy”, would
usually walk alone and seem to be the quiet type. And then after observing him
for a while *cough*stalking*cough* I realized he was in the same class as my
roommate. So naturally I asked my roommate about him.
This was where I fell.
I told her that “hey, there’s this cute guy in your class”
and she was like “what, there’s four guys in my class and none of them are that
cute” but I insisted that there was this cute guy. So she thought for a while
and remembered this guy. She looked for his whatsapp pic and then she said
wait, this guy’s pic is anime. I was already sold then. It was a picture of Red
from Pokemon. Then she looked for his pics and found one and showed it to me
and yes, it was the cute guy that I was talking about. Cue fangirl scream here.
My roommate then told me about him, his name (which I will
not write down obviously, but it’s a pretty unique name ;)) and how he’s into
anime. If I thought he was cute before, then he was 10 times cuter since he
likes anime. She also told me how he is the quiet type and uggghhh everything
she told me just got me liking him even more. And so I continued watching him
from afar *cough*stalking*cough*.
After a while, with teasings from friends, I sort of
developed a crush on him. He was upgraded from “cute guy” to “handsome guy”. I
kinda felt bad then because I have this thing where if my friends like give
support or tease me I become like what they are supporting or teasing me for.
Do you get me? I think I mentioned it before in another post? Not sure. Anyways
yeah I sort of like him.
There was also this one incident where my roommate and I
were doing the laundry and then suddenly I heard Miku’s voice from her phone.
So I was like “what was that?” and she said it was that guy. He sent an audio
to her class whatsapp’s group. She told me it was this Miku person who he
really likes. I was thinking in my head “OMG THIS GUY IS INTO VOCALOIDS. THE
HECK”. To me it’s different when a person knows what a Vocaloid is. I have this
one friend who is also into anime but when I asked about Miku and Vocaloid she
was like, hmm I haven’t seen the anime. Bruh. Hatsune Miku ain’t from an anime.
But it’s okay I understand if you don’t know about Vocaloids. But this guy knows about Vocaloids and he likes Miku. Like,
what the heck, I fell even deeper then hahahaha.
Being the scaredy cat I am I didn’t do anything but just
admired him from afar. Everyone who knew I liked him told me to do something or
somewhat but I only told them that who knows, maybe I’ll be in the same class
as him next sem, then maybe this story will continue XD
Alas, I am not in the same class as him this sem.
And so the story ends there. That’s it?!
Of course not, I can
still admire him from afar. As a matter of fact, I have even more news-relayer
this sem. News-relayer meaning the people who can tell me any news and updates
on what he did in class, or what topic he’s doing on his speech and even what
stupid jokes he made. Yeah… this sounds pretty stalker-ish. Meh, like I care.
I was kinda devastated when we got the class list because
two of my good friends were in the same class as he was and even my roommate is
in the same class. But on the bright side, I get to be in the same class as two
of my high school friends and it has been great.
Some of the people who knew I liked him asked me if I still
like him. Of course I still like him. What’s not to like? It’s actually more to
because he has the same interests so I feel like I’m sure we could be good
friends and talk about geek things lol.
He likes Miku, first of all. My friend who’s in the same
class even told me there was this one time where she showed a picture of Miku
or something and then he went “Miku~” and I could just imagine the fondness and
his smile and ughhh. So yeah, he likes Miku, which means he knows Vocaloid,
which makes me want to ask the question “BRO DO YOU PLAY PROJECT DIVA?” and if
he does, ughhh I would just fangirl and be like “I LOVE THAT GAME” and who
knows if I get to boast that I actually managed to get perfect once on Nisoku
Houkou. I would also ask if he has a PSP or whatever and if he does I could ask
like if I could borrow it and play and show off again hahahahaha.
My friend did saw him playing some games but they were on
PC. But it still sounded something like Project Diva. It was a rhythm-based
game anyway so I would still fangirl because rhythm-based games are bae.
I also feel like he is the kind that would make lame-ass
jokes like tumblr jokes. Which is so fun if you know someone who would get it and
laugh at the jokes a.k.a ME! But this one is unconfirmed.
I am so envious of my friend because she is in the same
class and usually gets to be in the same group for assignments. At least he
knows about her existence. Me? How can I even talk to him? We’re not in the
same class, he doesn’t know me, I’m not actually supposed to know him. But I
really wanna be friends with him. I really want to WhatsApp him because that’s
where I can fangirl and make lame tumblr jokes.
So that’s how it is right now. I dunno if anything’s gonna
happen. Well, nothing’s gonna happen if I don’t do something but that’s the
thing. I don’t want to do anything. I am just hoping some higher power would
suddenly make me bump into him or something. I really don’t think anything will
happen. But that’s okay because it’s not like I’m hoping for anything anyway.
And my feelings are already fine, because it’s experience, I’m happy because I
get to feel this way. Like my brother said, it’s just to add some fun things in
my university life.
Wow I sound miserable.
